Feeling Out Loud
Ding Ding Ding! With entry into Lockdown 5, I've racked up 50 Pandemic Poems. It's not a prize I'm happy about winning. This poem has been bubbling in my brain and dancing across my notebook for a month or so. I wanted to capture the feeling of being a "gambler" when in a manipulative/abusive relationship, … Continue reading Pandemic Poem #50 / The Gambler
I never used to listen to commercial radio, but now I have it on in the car, and sometimes while I do the dishes. I'm not completely averse to pop music anymore, however it does disturb me how so many modern love songs normalise disrespect, objectification and the notion that stalking is somehow an acceptable form … Continue reading Why “I Didn’t Mean To Hurt You” Is Not an Apology.
I had such a good time recently on air on The Arts Program on 99.9 Voice FM as a guest presenter, that I'll be doing it semi-regularly. Sitting in the studio is always a beautifully nostalgic place for me, because it takes me back to my formative years and reminds me of how connected I … Continue reading Flashback Friday – On The Same Frequency
Yesterday, my eldest child started school. I’ve been counting down for five years until this moment. I thought I would skip off merrily after dropping him on the first day, and with a big sigh of relief have myself a mid-morning cocktail and a rest. I was sure I wouldn't cry. But there I was … Continue reading Starting School
In April last year, I submitted three proposals to direct for a community theatre company in 2019 and 2020. In November 2018, a long six months later, I got a response to my proposals. And it floored me. My relationship with this company was already rocky. Their rejection of my proposal to produce Hollow was … Continue reading Why I’ve Turned My Back On Community Theatre
I hope everyone had a good day yesterday although I'm aware that this is absolutely not "the most wonderful time of the year" for a lot of people. And despite my attempted avoidance of all things Christmas (see my previous blog post), I did end up opening presents under a tree with my children at … Continue reading Christmas Is Now
Recently, I talked to an 84 year old lady who has written over twenty plays. I was interviewing her for an article I'm writing for the Central Highlands Arts Atlas. I asked her what her highlight was - and I meant in her theatre-making career - but she told me that meeting her husband, at … Continue reading Everything changes
I've been good at gathering evidence of my worthlessness throughout my life. At my first appointment with my new psychologist, she took one look at my answers to the test and asked me why I felt like I was so shit. And I thought, "Isn't it obvious?". These thought patterns have recently manifested in some … Continue reading On Worth
For a long time people would tell me (often immediately after saying 'Hi Megan') that I looked tired. But recently people have been telling me that I look happy. I've been working hard on giving myself new problems, and maybe that's the only kind of happiness there is. A few months ago, in an unusual … Continue reading Upgrading for Happiness