I don’t know who else needs to hear this but it’s okay if you enjoyed some parts of isolation. It’s okay if 2020 has given you gifts. It’s okay to be feeling like you’re in a better place now than you were at the start of the year.
A Letter to Myself Now Lockdown Is Over
You’ve been alone so long you’ve had a change in attitude
What was a yearning has now become a comfortable solitude
And now that pesky lockdown is finally coming to an end
You do not feel the need to rush out and meet a friend
In fact, you have asked your friends to find you, to meet me there online
You have spoken on the phone and somehow, that was more than fine
Your family has gathered more often than before
Old friends have been brought together without stepping through the door
And you have freedom from the male gaze, and from small talk and from stares
You can sing and dance and joke and play and no one’s here to care
You found you like it when it’s quiet, and you have the time to write
And you talk to yourself in the shower and eat guilt-free at night
So if you have no strong desire to get a buddy, even though you could
That’s fine, because even though you can, it doesn’t mean you should
This time has been a selfish gift of uplifting contemplation
Have no shame in admitting you actually enjoyed this isolation
You see, other people don’t make up your worth; you are whole just as you are
Even if no one is there to see you shine, you’re still a star